This blurb below was one of the daily encouragements I get by email everyday. This struck me to my core. This is exactly what we are going through and exactly what I needed to hear from God. My inner heart was so affected by this, so touched, I have barely stopped meditating on it since. Last night, we had a conversation that was a significant turning point in our marriage. God is faithful, awesome, and this gives me renewed hope. Hope that will not be taken from me because of doubt or fear. For a long time, I have been afraid of truly hoping because my hopes had been crushed so many times. I will not allow that anymore.
“This hope we hold as the utterly reliable anchor for our souls, fixed in the very certainty of God himself in Heaven, where Jesus has already entered on our behalf, having become, as we have seen…” Hebrews 6:19
When there is deep misunderstanding which has led to the erection of barriers between two who once were close, every day brings the strengthening of those barriers if they are not, by God’s grace, breached. One prays and finds no way at all to break through. Love seems to “backfire” every time. Explanations become impossible. New accusations arise, it seems, from nowhere (though it is well to recall who is named the Accuser of the brethren). The situation becomes ever more complex and insoluble, and the mind goes round and round, seeking the place where things went wrong, brooding over the words which were like daggers, regretting the failures and mistakes, wondering (most painfully) how it could have been different. Much spiritual and emotional energy is drained in this way–but the Lord wants to teach us to commit, trust, and rest.
“Leave him to me this afternoon,” is what his word is. “There is nothing else that I am asking of you this afternoon but that: leave him to Me. You cannot fathom all that is taking place. You don’t need to. I am at work–in you, in him. Leave him to Me. Some day it will come clear–trust Me.”
“Humble yourselves under God’s mighty hand, and he will lift you up in due time. Cast all your cares on Him, for you [and the other] are his charge” (l Pt 5:7).